hmm..
i kept getting so flattered these days.. record it down and next time when im old and wrinkled i can look back at these times..

asd(ronald) says:
y u wan make(eyelash extensions)
u so pretty le

OMG STEAMING HOT BOD!!!! La Cantina says:
lols
u still rmb how i lk like?

asd says:
ya
so pretty how to 4get
you are really pretty

x=x=x=x=x
well, but looks isnt everything. i think whats more important is the substance inside. it disgusts me that beauty nowadays only got the looks and bod, but nth else. for example take this girl Xue sha. her blog is at www.xueshasha.com
ive been frequenting her blog these days. she's earn big wads of cash everyday just by posing but she's actually just a ITE grad and she has no brains, seriously. why are women these days just selling their bods by posing almost naked, covering merely by a skimpy piece of cloth?
i think that is damn degrading la and i dont know how their boyfriends can stand it. It must be weird having like thousands of pple looking at ur gf's butt and boobs and masturbating..

and, kay kay. she's quite famous now and she just won 10k in S factor. she's pretty intelligent and she's an NUS grad for godness sake. now she's just fulltime modelling. i think that's a complete waste of her studies and her college fees. clever girls shouldnt earn their money by low class methods..

HAHAHAHAHA I SAW THIS AND I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF:
this is dawn yang's act chio ORIGINAL version:



and xiaxue's VERY funny impersonation of it:

La Cantina says:
wait
i go cook dinner

Suryadi | i wish i got poker face says:
hahahahah
u know how to cook?
=.=
dun look like one that know how to cook
ahaha
u look like tai tai


WHATTTT???
why all the boys think i so useless one?!
i do all the household chores u can think of ok? except maybe washing the fish tank(i used to do it, but now no more), and cleaning up ant shit, bird shit, lizard shit, and getting rid of ants
the rest i all do lor. hmph!!

making do with this one cause the rest sucks and i dont want to spend my precious time researching for more.
somemore this is quite done up and i dont have to edit much. dont know what i do and the column came out and the right side and i couldnt be bothered to go figure out which code went wrong.

(:
no more tagboard cause i realised its pretty useless since everyone just gives me comments on msn

just realised i dont have an archive on this blog. gotta change blog skin soon.

soon.

OMG I LAUGHED WHEN I SAW THIS:

PARIS (AFP) - - Jewellery worth some six million euros (8.4 million dollars) was stolen in a hold-up Saturday at the elite Chopard store in Paris's Place Vendome, police said.

The theft happened at around 3 pm (1300 GMT) at the premises near the Ritz Hotel, an official at the Paris police headquarters said, giving no details.

Chopard makes watches and jewels for the stars and has branches in most of the world's capitals.

In December thieves staged a record 100-million-dollar jewel heist at the Harry Winston boutique in the posh Avenue Montaigne of the Champs-Elysees.

Suspicion fell on the international gang known as the Pink Panthers.

====extracted from yahoo===

omg are u kidding me?? there's really such thing as pink panther?

LOL!!!!! unbelievable!!

did a whole morning of housework till now. taking a short break before continuing. gotta iron so many piles of clothes cause this morning i did 3 batches of washing machine washing and 2 batches of hand wash

lols..

so tired..

my sis just told me she won a trip to bali. LUCKY GIRL!!! her plane's stopping by singapore so i asked her to call us from the airport when she's there
miss her so much la!
whenever i go to china she's forever bring me for meals and manicures and pedis and shopping!!
(:
she bought alot of stuffs for me everytime!!!
(:

omg i feel so bad!!!

cause for the past week ive been buying alot of food from outside, thinking that i would be able to convince myself to finish it. but all the time i only eat a mouth or so then gave up and put it in the fridge and all the time my dad got to eat my leftovers
:(

pls pls appetite faster come back!!

omg.. just now i was preparing to wash my laundry when i suddenly realised my skirt costs 80. lols!! esprit skirts are ex man!!
yesterday i was just choosing and not even checking the price tags
=x

listening to alot of susan boyle these days.. love her voice
(:

today went to buy bubble tea. i quite some time nv go there le. i always buy from her 2 years back and last year. but this year i think i only visited her shop once or twice and the last time was a few mnths back

she was so shocked when she saw me and went,"ni xian zai wei shen me zhe me shou?! aiyo, ni tai shou le la!! chi duo yi dian!"
translation: why are you so thin now? aiyo, you are too thin now! you should eat more!

then she said ive lost too much weight compared to the past..
:(
i know i know. i just realised that i managed to fit into a pair of jeans which i havent been able to for the past yr or so. amazing lor!
(:
but boobs become smaller also!! hahas. these few days got massage la. hope can become bigger
:P

before leaving my house my parents kept pestering me, asking who im going out with. i just lied saying its my girl friend and showed them her pic.. lol
they dun let me go out with guy!! =x
my mum was damn nice. for like the first time ever, she let me go shopping. wahahaha
ample time left for me to prepare, so i camwhored after bathing :P




zhi qin treated me dinner.. but i couldnt finish :(
ate a few mouth only..
sob
:(

after zhi qin went to book in, i continued my shopping spree. wanted to shop at body shop but forgot to bring the member card so will go back again the next few days cause got 20% off. wahahaha

went to esprit and bought a skirt, a yellow and another pink shirt...
bought another dress somewhere else.
spent 200 today..
:(
my big bag of clothes!!!:


but very weird cuz i dun really feel that happy after today's shopping. and my mum too. lol. but not for the same reason though..she didnt expect me to spend so much
=x
whoops
though she really liked my skirt alot and my dad really liked me top alot (: they both dont like the other one. weird. hahas

today saw alot of couples shopping. everywhere seeing guys waiting for their gfs to choose their clothes or jewellery, then paying for them, saying it looks nice on them..
lucky biatches..

11 plus le.. im so tired. :(

hahas ops. i accused euminl of forgetting me as a friend cuz she nv contact me at all.
then i suddenly realised she did contact me just that i never bothered replying her smses

ops!!
=x

and she's damn hot now lol

gg clubbing with euminl babe and sabrina the week after my exams cuz euminl gotta fly off to aussie soon..
euminl been clubbing so much these days la! naughty girl..
hahas

guess me and sab will just chill till morning then come home
(:

zhi qin is damn sweet. he got things to do till late but he say he will try to rush to meet me so that we could atch a movie too. he gotta book in at 9 so there might not be time..
then he kept prompting me to choose a nice place i like to eat. he said,"Find some nice place you like then we go eat la.. or else end up eat fast food..haha.."
lols

but i dno where to eat lol. maybe thai express or crystal jade bah..
(:
so tired now. chat abt then i go rest le.
(:

i finally got my appetite back. not completely yet, but there's progress
(:
credit goes to suryadi and his magic weapon
hahas
(:

gg meet zhiqin at 6 later
omg that reminds me. i gotta check the movie timing. brb

my parents are the sweetest. this morning when i woke up they kept asking me what i wanted to have for breakfast(since ive been skipping breakfast(and lunch and dinner) for the past upteen weeks). i think they came out with a strategy to help me eat

dad: what you want to eat for breakfast?
me: wo bu yao chi
dad: char siew pau?
me: bu yao
dad: roti prata?
me: bu yao
dad: macdonalds?
me: bu yao

this went on for another few times before he finally gave up.
lols

and ive been sleeping so badly for the past weeks, finally forced my panda eyes out
:(
though thanks suryadi for talking to me all through the night till i finally felt tired.
(:

now im trying to book slots for monday. i think i will get one or two. cause i realised every morning sure have pple abandon their afternoon slots. just today, 3 saturday slots and 1 sunday slot are left unwanted.. good timing somemore.. if it isnt peak hour, i would have so totally booked them..

:(

its 2am and im still talking to suryadi on the phone..
hahas
been talking to him so much these days!!
ive been on the phone with him for hours and hours and now my ears hurt damn badly already
:(
he's been such a great great friend
(:

and he even reminded me tt i kissed him back in GMSS before, which i dont even have any impression anymore..
=x

going out with zhi qin tmr for dinner and a movie at jurong point
(:
his treat
woots~

omgomg im so touched

even fu er came and comfort me now.
omg omg!!!

my parents are so worried abt me now cuz i havent been eating since last friday or sth.. my mum cooked my fav food for lunch today but i couldnt even force one mouth in.. she was so worried..

but its not my fault. i dont even feel hungry!!

so many pple ask me out tmr. dno whether to go or not. then next question is who to go out with.
zzzzz

feel like clubbing tonight but no car :(

im so touched now.
everyone's been great to me..
and just now i randomly talked to a girl on msn(whom i dont even know) cause her nick spiked my interest. and she turned out to be penny's friend and she was totally sweet and even changed her nick to:

esther cheer up!!!!

omg. tts was damn sweet!! and now sab is totally dating me out to club!!
im so tempted to drive my family car there la so dunnid splurge on cab.
hahas. we just discussed and decided we will stone till 6am and go home by public transport
(:
next next wed prob. (:
so excited alr
but it wont be zouk. rebel here we coming
(:

my third driving lesson today.

i got a damn crap car la!!!
the accelerator responds like 3 seconds late everytime and the brakes were lousy
zzzz
so my driving today was kinda crap at first till i got a hang of it and it became better. i love going on the long long road beside the bbdc where i could hit 70km/h! in fact i even got to 75 for abit when my instuctor isnt looking.
hehes
did alot today. went through all the obstacles and stuffs. the S bend was damn hard! and i went at a super fast speed he was like,"too fast already!!!"
but i didnt hit the curb leh!! not bad hor. hahas
loved my this instructor cause he brought me to do a lot of bends which i super love. (: turning the steering wheel is absolute shiokness.
and he even praised me alot during lesson. he said i was really good and seeing that it's only my 3rd lesson, im progressing fast
(:
i told u im clever!!!!

i always thought that its hard to hit high speeds but after learning driving i suddenly realised how simple it is really. and how it just seems so slow all the time. at 75km/h i thought im at like 50. then when i looked at the meter i got a shock la. just press accelerator abit only hit there already.
and i still have a habit of cornering at 30.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i think i got too much bad influence in the past la. now i become reckless driver also
:(

im gonna be a dangerous driver after i get my license. :(

and anyway, ive planned tt after i get my license im so gonna hit zouk every week with my girls. ladies night maybe. save some cash hahahs
but of course i gotta find my way there first. =x
been to zouk so many times but still i cant rmb my way there..
:(

been at a particular blog for the entire day..
the songs on her blog are amazing!!! got all those womaniser, cyclone, in the club,beautiful blah blah blah
(:

sad news
my 2 newly bought fishies died today

sob...
such an unlucky day for me..
:(

im fainting. but still no appetite

enjoying 'show' with penny now
hahahahahahahas
we are so entertained!
(:
thanks suryadi for talking to me too. (:
been great with u around

im losing weight these days. i can feel it. my fainting days are back, plus the cold sweating and dizziness.
dont have appetite for the whole day again. waiting for tomorrow when penny would phsyco me into eating.. i hate not having appetite and just waiting for the faint feeling in the late afternoon later. i hate looking at great food and just feeling sick. my ex favourite food shilin mee sua is just a plain bowl of noodles to me now. i feel like vomitting when i think of it.

i seriously think im getting anorexia.

plus, ive been having sleepless night for the past few weeks. cant sleep at all. would be walking around in the dark all night long. alcohol doesnt seem to do the trick :( alan introduced to me a tea called chamomile or sth. maybe i shld give it a try..

i miss my yang qin
this is a picture of it:



basically it contains many many strings and most pple once they see it they give up learning cause it looks hard.
and you have to play with two sticks so its harder to aim exactly on the spot to get the right note. it requires lots of trainings to get it right. i played that since primary two all the way to sec four.. and still, i call myself a noob at it because its something that really require full dedication and lots of time to master.
and to play it, you dont really just 'play' it. we call the playing method "whipping". so everytime you have to whip the strings real hard to get the desired sound. and the strings are somewhat close together so you have to have very good aim and feel of it. plus, you have to be quick and go down fast and come up fast. the best optimum result is when the yang qin stick hits your forehead when its lifted after every note. and imagine how many notes there are and thus that explains the speed you have to go at. there are many other rules to this instrument that makes it all so much harder thus it makes me feel extraodinarily satisfied everytime i finally get a verse right
(:
but still, i love it. i wont ever give it up for something else for example liu qin or base or cello or er hu. its sth special to me and i think that the instrument suits my character alot.
i miss playing it alr! and its sad tt i dont have lessons e next week and next next week due to exams so i dun have an aveue to express my feelings anymore.
sob
:(

i wanna cry already. i logged in to bbdc and found 2 super good slots. just that i paused a bit to double check the dates. when i click submit, the confirmation notice came out. but when i clicked confirm, IT WAS TAKEN ALREADY!!!

am i freaking suey or wad.
sob

i cant sleep.
:(

listening to songs..

one of our takes that we used for our video. we did this scene for an hour and can u believe it, we couldnt produce a non-laughing scene AT ALL
we almost gave up lols..
and can u believe it the vid on top is totally impromptu cause we totally expected it to be a NG again but we managed to pull it through
hahas!
(:
and we even managed to some extent, hide the laughing part
(:

changed blog skin. not very nice and not what i was looking for but i think this will do..


went for lunch with alan today. didnt have appetite. didnt eat much.
:(

he dropped me at school and i went to do my project. we were efficient today and work got done way before the expected time. alot of NG scenes with penny as usual
=x
we just cant help laughing when we look at each other!!
asked penny for her advice about the jar thing. she was like,"of course take it back la!!! girls can take back ma." then i ask her,"huh.. boy leh?" penny went,"boys different. boys must be gentleman ma etc etc.."
lols..
had alot of laughs throughout the whole afternoon. my girls nv fail to crack me up.. (:
at around 3+ i accompanied penny to canteen 2 to eat(cause i wanted to have some ice kachang too). then she forced me to buy some proper food cause i was having gastric. so i bought some soup noodle and managed to finish it. my first proper meal in the past few days..

now im so looking forward to the match later. alan's coming to pick me up at my house and bring me out to catch the match. and talked to eustace on the phone just now and he got me so hyped up about it.. hahas
(:

piccas:





my personal chauffer (:

anyway, xiaxue's blog is up and finally she's blogging..
shes been damn MIA for the past months!!
missed her so much la!! its crappy when i had to resolve to alot of dawn yang and esther miracle season and angelababy and lemon graphic and papergirlsshop(they suck damn bad now) and other random blogs.
:(

but then, I FOUND A NEW PAST TIME!! ive been twittering and till now, ive already got 3 followers!! hahha!! but i swear im the most boring person there cause i seldom twitter and i havent really figured out how to use it yet. most of the time im just following kay kay, xiaxue, paris hilton and miley cyrus around. jennifer will be my next (: i want to see how she is managing her life after her highly-featured breakup with john.

paris hilton is just partying and going to concerts all the time =x

wow, im so flattered. eustace just said this to me:
Eustace : Live With It. says:
I've always been targeting you..
That was crudely put =.=
As in, i've always wanted you..
You're like the type that I really want.
Its like, caring, sweet, loving, understanding, but yet, classy too (:

You're the most beautiful lady i have ever met, too!
I meant every single word I said.
Serious.
I won't lie to you,=)

lol..
i totally didnt expect that..

but still, i dont think i am caring, sweet, loving, understanding and classy. well, in the past maybe yes. Now to my friends, maybe yes. to strangers, maybe yes. is like yesterday, a girl in CO wanted to learn yang qin so i helped her carry her yang qin all the way from the storage room to the CO room and taught her how to set up. she was smaller size than me so i didnt ask her to help me since yang qin is really quite heavy. in my sec school, i remember once after my concert 3 guys carried one..
=x
that was super lame la cause if i can carry it myself during PRIMARY THREE, they are secondary students and had to 3 pple carry one?
sure anot??!

so anyway, i helped her find a chair too and helped her keep her yang qin after the session.
my point is, maybe ive been spoilt too much or what, i dont know. but im happy to know that i am improving. i want to improve. i prayed to god yesterday night for a long time. i talked to him. i told him i really want to be a better person. i can't do anything about my character because thats the way i am and i dont want to turn myself into a 'fake'. i know sometimes pple think im crazy because i can be angry for a second and happy the next. im just born like that. i cant be angry for long no matter how i force myself to. and some people may find me irritating cause i talk too much sometimes. and some will find me childish cause my thoughts and things i say are very childish, but i cant help it!
just live with it!!!
u think i like to be childish and have everyone laugh at how immatured i am?
u think i like to be called crazy cause i cant stay angry or sad for long?
maybe the second one is good. but then it put me at an disadvantage cause pple tend to use me for that. and i get hurt too often.
maybe that explains my overflowing emotions.
sigh..
i always blamed god for having me born like that. for the small eyes on my face. for my small boobs. for my childishness. for my everything. but i shouldnt blame him for anything because that's the way im special. that's the way im different and thus, that shall be the way i live my life, to forgive and forget easily and be the happy girl i always have been..

ok i suddenly lost the mood to blog. chatting on msn.
(:
tata~

im feeling DAMN BAD for taking back the jar. and my mum just scolded me. it know.. its against my rules to take back things, but i dont know why i did that too!!! i just thought that i should listen to angela and under that kind of circumstances i just went crazy.

:(

and i cant believe it but miaohui asked me to take it back too. she said she would.
=x
what???
am i the only person, other than my parents that believes in not taking back the things that were once given to others???
:(

feel god damned horrible.
alan just called gotta go tata

hello people!!
finally i have a new blog to mark a new beginning in my life
(:

let me talk about yesterday first. my second driving lesson and it was SO MUCH FUN!!! the teacher was going on and on teaching me stuffs at the beginning and i was thinking,"can u just shut up and let me take the wheel?????"
finally, after about 10 minutes of him driving, he asked me to change seats. WHEEEEE
and after i started driving he diam diam already cause personally, i feel that my driving is quite smooth. i dont jerk the car at all. and it was raining so it was a bit hard to brake in time. the only one time i braked fully was when a stupid taxi was overtaking a bus in the other direction and HE CAME ONTO MY PATH which was a single lane and thus i got to brake damn hard cuz he was totally coming my way. damn close somemore
idiot cab drivers

and guess what. my instructor fell asleep TWICE

LOL

i love driving man!!!! especially turning corners. DAMN FUN LA. miaohui say she most scared of turning corners but i love it cause its not boring like going straight and i feel a sense of accomplishment everytime i complete the corner
(:
what pissed me off great time is that at the first 40 minutes I KEPT KENAING ALL THE RED LIGHTS!!!! unlucky or what?! everytime got to stop damn long, especially the bukit batok bloody traffic junction...
zzzz
so, after my driving lesson i went for my practice and guess wad, my kor edmund was there and he just passed his class 3 driving test and was applying for license!! (: we chatted abit then i went for my practice. i only managed to complete 6 papers..
:(
went to school after tt. miao hui was waiting for me at the school bus stop.. (: i was so happy to see her la! and she passed me a packet of cookie which penny asked her to pass to me. after tt we walked to bukit timah food court to have my dinner while she ate the bread she brought(what's new, lol)
i didnt have appetite AT ALL. i bought duck rice plus sugar cane juice. in the end i finished 1/4 of the rice only.. :( miao hui kept encouraging me to eat more cause i was feeling faint before tt already..
we walked back to school again and she couldnt find the CO room.. lol...
=x
finally we saw two students carrying pi pa some distance away so we walked over..
i was actually quite scared that CO wouldnt want me cause i didnt sign up or anything and i missed the first practice last week. but luckily they wanted me after hearing tt i got experience
(:
i set up my instrument sat beside miaohui and her liu qin. but sadly, i got to go to a separate room after my instructor came.
and guess what, after my instructor heard me play, he immediately asked me to join the senior concert group with immediate effect. omg. that means diff training days and time WHICH MEANS im gonna be separated from miao hui!
:(
big sob la!!!
he asked the committee to find pieces for me to play with and when the committee came up with nth and told him tt they threw away all the pieces, he got so angry and told them to produce what he want at all cost.
so finally, the committee found 2 for me.. (: and they kept apologising to me
=x
i felt damn bad la cause they were like rushing around for me and getting scolded
:(
so after tt, i started practising with one of them which is...
JU HUA TAI!!! (:
some parts were hard to master and i was at a verse for like 1 hour before i could play it out without error
fun nontheless and i kept dropping by at miaohui's room to see her hard at work with her liu qin..
(:
miao hui's session ended abt 25 minutes earlier than mine so she waited for me and after that helped me carry my yang qin back..
love you darling!!
(:
and she missed her bus because of tt.. :(

alan picking me up for lunch and send me to school for project later. he's reaching in half an hour's time. i better go off to prepare now..
tata!
(: