just talked with darling on the phone
(:
he's booking out tmr! i'm super elated!! he was supposed to only come out on sat cause he couldnt do much pullups apparently, but my amazing darling worked so hard and got so fit after he got into camp and he did 8 pullups today!
i'm SOOOOO proud of him!
(:
and he just sent me a really sweet sms
(:
he told me to believe him when he says that he misses me.. but sometimes when he's not around i tend to think too much and my thoughts will run wild then i start to have all sorts of doubts
:(
maybe i shall really start to remind myself all the sweet little things that my darling have done for me and how lucky i am to have such a amazing bf
(:

and just now he told me he got a surprise for me on saturday and i managed to guess what it was to his disappointment!
(:
he was thinking of bringing me to the Night Safari cause ive ALWAYS wanted to go there!!!
(:
so happy!!!
but we might not be able to use the car so hopefully that day this problem will be sorted out
(:
promised him to sleep early, so i shall go bathe now, chat a little bit more with ser and hit my bed
(:

alright, so i didnt manage to sleep at 12.. i was busy typing all the smses that darling sent to me in the past months
(:
so sweet
a few more to go
probably sleeping at 2

omg i just realised, i only used 12 lessons to complete all my driving lessons
lol!!!
im amazing! even my mum took 20+ lessons!

(:
anyway this afternoon i was feeling super shag cause of my period, so i slept the entire afternoon AND STAINED MY PARENT'S BED!!!
shit
my bed sheets were washing so i went over to my parents bed to sleep
and their bed sheet was just newly changed yesterday
felt damn guilty
:(
sob la! im really desperate for my 42cm sofy pads!!
but too busy these days, no time to go get them
sigh
:(

got scolded for spending so much on such a ugly phone case
:(
sob
so regretted tt i didnt go PS to get that lovely baby pink case
:(
sob
daddy gg overseas(to guangzhou) tmr. when i came home just now and saw his luggages i straight away went to ask him where he was going and i whooped in glee when he told me it was guangzhou!!! hahahas... guangzhou is a paradise of the FAKES!
im so desperately in need for a new and chioer wallet. the one im using now is from 2 years plus back when danny bought it as a couple wallet for us. thus me asked daddy to go get me a fake new LV wallet!!
whee
(:
so happy!
ive been eyeing on that model for dunno how long alr!!!
(:
and i asked him to get me a LV bag too! happiness!!!
(:
though its fake, its AAA quality so it totally looks real!
muahahahaha
(:
gonna cost quite a lot too. maybe abt SGP500. but it costs 2.4k in sg!!!!
5 times cheaper can!!
hahahahahahahahas
actually its not exactly fake la. same material everything. just that i dont know how they do it, but they just get the same from the same factory. just that its not sold in LV stores so it doesnt include those expensive designer fees and brand fees in it
(:
so looking forward to my darling new bag!
(:
or wallet
or whatever. i just so wish my dad could find time to get it for me cause he's always so busy when he goes to china
:(
*crosses fingers.
and just now miaohui totally alerted me of my looming driving test
shit!!!
she made me so nervous now alr!!!
:'(
dear said he will help me with it when he book out this weekend. i need to brush up on my turning techniques plus practice on my 3-point-turns.
i also need to familiarise with alll the test routes and also most importantly, get my left and right side sorted out. i always confuse the both which is damn irritating!!!
:(

didnt get to talk with darling much today. damn sad. :(
and he didnt msg me much today too
:(
made me wonder was he contacting someone else so no time for me
:(
im being so paranoid now but i cant help it
sob
miss my darling

night pple
will try to sleep by 12 today. stupid period makes me soooo tired
sigh
and so pain
:(

i wanted to upload piccas but bloody blogger doesn't allow me to. sucks
muss darling!! he nv sms me! so sad:(

yeah!!! its successful! the charger worked perfectly and the phone is fully charged now!!
(:
so happy!
(:

our stat class today was so eventful
first, the OHP went on fire!!! i was so amused by it! and the OHP was right beside me, dun even have gap. so i got quite freaked out that it would explode on me too
anyway, the screen sort of go fuzzy and can see the fire shadow. then some pple smelled some burning smell. i didnt, nor did the person beside me. weird, since we were the closest to the OHP. the teacher came over to examine and we saw fire inside the OHP!! damn cool la!! (:
we faster off the power but the fire went on for quite a bit before it went out. the burning smell became quite strong after tt. the teacher was damn irresponsible la. he just asked someone to get a new OHP and he asked students to push the burning one aside and he didnt bother abt it anymore
wtf
he shld at least report it right?
next, i was a bit careless and i forgot that i left my phone on my lap and when i moved, my phone fell onto the floor!!!
i gave a cry and picked it up and examined it. there was 2 scratches on it! damn sad i cried la!! then the teacher and my classmates were like comforting me for damn long before i calmed down
:(
sorry darling!! :( i didnt mean it to drop it :(

after school i collected the solar energy charger i bought for dar. (:
finally. and its late by one day la!! sad
i'm using it to charge my mum's phone to try out now since her's also a nokia. i wanna see how long it takes to charge it full

and i rushed to jurong point to buy a case for my phone. i was thinking of going to PS for the reaLLY chio cover i fell in love with 2 days back. but tt time i didnt have money to buy it
:(
but after i dropped it, i had to get a cover asap no matter what.
i got to JP, hoping tt some shop would sell that too. but no such luck. i spent hell long going into all the shops but they only have ugly yet expensive cases :(
in the end bo bian, i spend 34 and got a fking ugly silicon case
:(
damn sad
spent so much might as well tt day buy tt case le
:(
sob
but at least my dearest phone is protected now (:

missing darling.
off to have lunch
(:

i'm feeling so lost and bored without darling. :( feel like crying in self-despair all the time. thus i decided to come online and look through my blog entries for the past 2 wednesdays to give me an idea of what to do later on when i reach home from stat.
life is weird without my baby
:(
sob

i SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hate period a million times over
first, it makes me sick ALL THE TIME. this morning woke up with asthma
was wheezing non stop
then i hurriedly got up and check my bed to see if i stained
nothing
so i lied down again and played with my phone
30 minutes later, i got up to go wash up and found out that i had a severe backleak and ive stained a patch at least the size of my head
damn it
my bed sheets were still fresh and new and now ive got to wash them all over again!!!!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
and ive went out of my lifesaving 42cm sofy pads so last night i did 2 overlapping whisper 24cm pads but the glue sucked and the back pad refused to stick on my panties and now this
rawrrr
hate period la.
then decided not to go for my audit lesson in the morning cuz i was so pissed
lol
now ive got to go for makeup lessons either tmr or friday
sigh
got to go for stat
bb

its 1 am+ le..
:(
i've been up typing out all the phone sms i had with darling in my samsung F480.
every sms, regardless of its length, came with a memory attached and ut felt like i lived through all those memories again. May was the saddest month in, i think the whole of the one year we were together. the whole month we were constantly quarrelling, and even the honeymoon on 1st-3rd May wasnt a happy one. It was also the month that we had our worst and longest breakup and sent me spiralling into despair and depression. On 1 Jun we started healing and on the night of 2nd June, going to 3rd June, he came to find me at my house and we got together again
(:
since then, we didnt have anymore major breakups. a few little hiccups and unhappiness here and there but all's fine
(:
i'm left with 25 messages to go but my phone is out of batt so i got to charge it before i can continue and finish it.

spent my last 3 days with darling
(:
on sunday, finally he booked out. i was supposed to meet his parents at 6.15pm. there was construction at my house so all the buses got stuck far far away and till 5.30pm, still no buses came. went home and asked for help. dad offered to drive me to clementi, where i took a cab(only had $7 on me) then i changed to bus.
reached there right on time but his parents were late lol. made me quite pissed cause i was totally rushing down
=x
his dad came to pick his mum and me up from cine and we set off to pick up darling at pasir ris. we got soooooo lost and ended up only reaching at 07.20pm i think. i was SOOOOOOOOOOO happy to see darling. it wasnt just happy. there was this feeling that i couldnt really describe. i missed him so much. was a bit gan1 ga4 at first but after a while i started snuggling up to him in the car (:
his dad drove us to geylang where we had super delicious hokkien mee and duck!
(:
then we headed to buy durians! bought a lot man!!
after we finally got home, darling took so long to untie his super-complicated boots. then at last i had him personal in his room and we had a long long hug
(:
i cried cause it felt so good and i felt so happy that he's finally back. i've waited so long for it and it felt so special at that moment when i had him in my arms and it made me feel loved and at home again.
(:
and he gave me a brand new iphone 3G!!! (: Love ya darling!
we ate durians and spent the night tgt. he sent me home at 11pm+. talked a while on the phone after he got home and we both were so tired we KOed on the spot.
Monday. Early morning i went to his house and we went to PS with his dad to get him a new phone cuz his old one's battery sucked. his dad was rushing for a flight so we were sort of running here and there to get it done. took quite a bit of time and his dad was a bit late. after darling finally got his E51, we drove to cine, parked there and went to buy tickets for Harry Potter. whee~~
(:
we got the 3.05pm show cause it was in Digital format, but it also meant that we had alot of time on our hands cuz tt time was only 11+, nearing to 12nn only
we went to pasta de waraku. had a fight and i cried somemore
:(
he comforted me half-heartedly and after a while i was ok and we continued our meal.
his pasta was so much nicer than mine!!
:(
after the meal we were thinking wad to do for the next 2 hours. in the end we decided to go back to his house. after we got back,he charged his phone and did some other stuffs while i rested. we left his house at 2.40pm i think. got back to cine right on time and we still had time to buy some soda to bring in
(:
HP6 was a nice, long show. dumbledore's dying part sucked IMO. it was a hundred million times more touching in the book

after the show, we went to get the car and the parking fee totalled up to $10+, including our morning usage. damn crazy can!!! it was just merely 3-4 hours!
we went to NTUC at clementi to get some veggie and clothes detergent(for him to bring into camp) and went home to have dinner. his mum had prepared dinner and was waiting for us.

nothing much happened after tt. quarrelled a bit again though and i cried, followed by him crying, then me crying again
=x

he drove me home at 12 (:

TODAY
woke up at 9+ and waited for his call cause he was supposed to come pick me after he go for some chinese massaging for his back. but it didnt come so i decided to go over myself. he called me just in time as my bus came and i decided to go buy porridge at clementi for him for breakfast. there were many pple queuing for it so i walked around the place while waiting. who knows darling gave me a surprise by turning up there to drive me home
(:
so we got home, he did his last minute packing and we had porridge for lunch (:
after which he drove me to my lesson which was at 2pm and he went home then went to the chinese massager and also washed the car before coming to pick me up at 3.50pm
(:
got home and he started cooking dinner for me!!
(:
we had blackpepper steak and veggie
(:
he got to be at pasir ris by 715pm and initially he was planning to go by train but in the end time was tight so he decided to drive there instead. he asked his sis to go along so she could get the car back.
left house at 6.10pm and i still thought we were early
but then a series of unfortunate events befell on us and we all thought we weren't going to make it and darling was even thinking of taking an MC to escape punishment.
there were jams and heavy traffic all the way and then when we finally neared there, we got lost and spent 25 minutes desperately trying to find our way there.
we reached exactly at 715pm and thank goodness darling didnt get into any trouble for it
(:
talked to darling for an hour before i let him go sleep just now
(:
hehes
i'm missing him soooo much now! and ive been thinking about us alot and im really glad that we've finally gone past the break-up-everyday stage and our relationship now is so much more stable. though there were still stupid quarrels, and as i've said they are stupid and could totally be avoided, we should take note next time and lessen them and make our relationship filled with happiness and no more sad moments.
i'm sure that day will come in the near future
(:
3+am now alr. so tired. still gotta wake up at 7+ tmr
:(
tata!!!
period 2nd day! suck!!!

omg. i'm so excited now!
2 more hours!!!!
omg0mgomggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i met with my 4th mishap today
fuck

this morning i was so lazy to handwash my clothes so i dumped them into my washing machine and handwashed the rest of the 4 more precious tops of mine. in the end i only had 3 items in my washing machine so i went to find more things to wash. threw in my towel(which ive just used for 2 days), my tubes, my jacket(worn only once for 10 minutes) and some other rubbish which i could find. but still, i only had 9 items eventually(including 2 tubes).
zzzz

maybe god's punishing me for wasting resources thats why he arranged to many unfortunate events to happen

sigh
:(

6 m0ore hours!
at last

im so suey i met 3 fucking mishaps in a row.
i went to the kitchen happily sipping on the last of my apple milk shake and headed to the sink to wash it and the next thing i know i was on the ground, vaguely aware that my panties suddenly feels cold and wet
when i finally realised what happened i was so fucking pissed cause i was on the ground half lying in a pool of dirty soap water and my ass and legs hurt like hell. and my panties is fucking wet :( (i don't wear shorts at home)
my washing machine pipe spoilt a while back so now we had to direct the dirty water into pails and it so happened that the pail overflowed and i forgot to empty the water.
so the kitchen was flooded
damn it
so i got up, and proceeded to carry the pail into the toilet but it was so fucking heavy i strained my back and it still hurts NOW
its totally IMPOSSIBLE TO CARRY CAN. in the end i still dragged it to the toilet and half injuring my back while doing so
i emptied half onto the toilet floor then poured the rest into the toilet bowl. and I REALISED MY FINGERS FUCKING GOT STUCK AT THE DNO WAD SHIT AT THE TOP OF THE PAIL AND ITS FKING TIGHT AND ITS FKING PAIN AND I JUST COULDNT PULL MY FINGERS OUT
so great, all my 8 fucking fingers are fucking stuck in the fucking pail, excluding my thumbs
i was so fucking fuming by then already so i just forcefully pulled all of them out and just didnt care whether it hurts or not
hot in the head and pissed off with everything in the world, i washed my legs and panties while still wearing it and came out of the toilet with my legs and panties both dripping water but i dont give a shit anymore. so here i am sitting on my chair with wet panties.
stupid as it sounds but too pissed to give a flying fuck

7 more hours!!!
can't wait!
actually want post up pictures for NDP and cheekok's date de, but blogger dun let me :(

gotta go do laundry!

11/3
real busy tonight.
doing my ifa tutorial. spent my whole night on it and i havent even finish 1/100 of it.
i've got a point to prove and i won't disappoint

talked to darling for an hour plus just now (: heaven. was in a bad mood at the beginning again! maybe due to lack of sleep or troubled by my tutorial idk but then my mood gradually improved as we chatted. His trainings are getting really tough and i'm really glad that he is not letting his eye stray from his goal and working hard towards it.
i'm proud of my darling
(:
though it would be perfect if he could stop smoking inside.

tmr's gonna be a real busy day again. IFA makeup tutorial 9-11am, lecture 11-1pm. EAA class from 2-4pm but ive got my driving at 4pm so i think i'll request to leave early for it.
after my tuition i gotta rush off for tuition at 7pm. will probably reach home at 9.30pm, just in time for darling's call
(:
perfect

busy busy busy
still got to wash clothes and do my work
gtg

10.25/3.75

yeahhhh finally im done with the irritating report that is not even graded. (:
completed with 2555 words.
amazing
grass jelly accompanied me for the whole night, i kept eating. plus i havent even touched my half-eaten dinner yet.
=x
been eating so much comfort food these days. loading myself with sweet stuffs. cheekok said i gained weight and she even laughed at my tummy
=x
she also got fat what. but her boobs also so big now :(
she laughed at me saying why my tummy, thighs etc become bigger but my boobs still so small
hmpf :(

time to bathe and and message darling good night and sleep
night world!

10.25/3.75
(i put decimals today just to make myself fell better cause it seems a little bit shorter now)
(:
FINALLY FINALLY 3 DAYS LEFT
im dying without my darling already
:(
just hung up the phone, but not after a little bit unhappiness..
when he called me 10.06pm, i was in a foul mood due to some studies/family/financial problems and he turned out to be pissed off too due to his stupid inefficient in-charge wasting his time plus he's tired after days of tough physical training and having minimal sleep for the past 10 days.
so a little thing sparked us off and we got really pissed with each other and hung up. after i cooled down after 20 minutes, i called him back and we chatted till just then we hung up.
i was so glad that i called him back cause i so enjoyed those precious 30 minutes spent talking to him. there was some bad news from him though. we can't get to use his car on monday n tues as planned. :( so we got to find other methods or work it out with his dad. i was initially really disappointed cause i miss being in his car and i knew he miss driving but then wads important is getting to spend time with each other, car or no car.
and another bad news is, he requested to smoke more than one per day. :( i totally understand that training's tough inside and he needs to smoke it off but its real harmful to his health. i wont care if its other pple, but its my boyfriend and we are in such a serious relationship, i really dont wish to see him smoke and get all those scary and deadly cancers in the future. maybe its a bit exaggerated, but to me, watching him smoke is like watching him lessen his living years day by day and its really quite torturous for me.
anyway, we had a really enjoyable and sweet talk and i'm so happy that he still sent me a goodnight sms despite him being tired/phone low batt and all (:
and i'm really glad that till now, our relationship is not really affected by him going in and our little conflicts get resolved fast. we really had to treasure all the time that we have to talk to each other every night because its really hard for both of us to just have tt little window of a couple of minutes per day and its seriously too little. In the past, we spend all our day time tgt and at night we still get to talk as long as we want. its so much different now and i think we both still aren't taking it well. it's always hard to say good bye.
on a brighter note, it's less than 4 days away and i'll get to see him soon (:

~~~
bad day for me though. flunked my audit test completely. sigh. and i didnt do as well as expected for my stat test. combining the first test and this, i only managed to get 34.3% out of 40% and if i'm aiming for an AD ive got to work really hard for my final paper which takes up 50%. 10% is for participation and i'm sure i'll score for that
:)

gotta go write my report already. time to stop procrastinating and get it done lol. teacher already called me up to rush me
=x

miss my darling <3333

9/5
yeahhh 5 days left. whee!!!
(:
darling called me at 1030pm but he had to go wash clothes then now he had to change bed sheets.
zzzzz
waiting for him to miss call me..
(:
YEAHH he called

~~~
its 11.25pm now i've just hung up with darling! (: he was the sweetest and he told me during his free time he was planning of what to do on monday and tuesday. so on monday he's bringing me to eat pasta de waraku(finally!! (: ) and then we are going to catch a movie(probably mao mao potter) then we will find something else to do then at night he's bringing me to geylang to eat hokkien mee plus durians!!
whee~~
(:
i'm so looking forward to his company la!! (:
miss him sooooo badly!!
:(

today came home super late(10.20pm). was super shag and hungry and gobbled up my dinner. CO was tough. i was kind of struggling to play through a song without mistakes. i've improved alot from the last practice but its not enough and there's still a lot of room for improvements. one major problem is that i ALWAYS misread/misinterpret the notes and played sth else and i had no one to correct me cause i only have merely 5 minutes of personal time with the instructor every lesson. :(

going for an extra lesson this thursday. actually no need go de. but i thought more practice will do me good and since i'm quite free anyway (:
though thursday will be generally quite a busy day.lesson from 9am up till 5pm will no breaks in between. then cca at 630. demanding day but i'm sure i should be able to cope.
(:
its late le(12.05am) and yes, I AM STILL PROCRASTINATING AND NOT DOING MY REPORT.
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
spent my entire afternoon watching discs
=x
i'm so hopeless la! lol. and i still have an audit test tmr which i havent studied for. guess i shall just cheat and copy answers from miao hui and penny (: its an open book test too so shldnt be too bad lurh
(:

8/6
these days after my bf went to NS, ive been trying really really really REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY hard to kick off my bad habit of procrastination but sometimes things just don;t work in my favour! yesterday night, after delaying writing my I&E report for 2 weeks, i decided to get it done last night. but who knows i had to catch my sister copying answers from her assessment book and i had to invigilate her for the entire night :(
then tonight, just as i was about to start writing, miaohui came and talked to me abt IFA project. so i spent the next 2 hours doing it. when i sent it to her, i casually asked her when her theory test is. she said she forgot and went to check. AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TMR!
that girl can be really so blur sometimes.
she had like super little practise and doomed to fail. so i spent the next few hours till NOW recalling the questions and typing them out to her. after that i did some research and found a website tt offers all those questions and answers for free so i passed it to her and guided her through the questions
its 12.26pm now and its time to hit bed lol

lets just see how long more it will take me to get my report done.
lol

just saw a 12.20pm slot for driving tmr and im so tempted to skip my bloody useless tutorial and go.
but thinking twice(plus miaohui begging me not to), i decided to be a good girl and not skip class.
anyway i'm supposed to be meeting en shen in school tmr too. by right we should have met today BUT I TOTALLY FORGOT ABT IT and left him waiting for me at the underpass for 2 hours while i happily left school and went for my tuition
gosh~
tmr better remind myself abt it

driving test looming ahead. a bit nervous =x yet a bit excited. sort of mixed feelings.
<3 driving!!!
(:

tmr is a slack day. law lecture till 11am then 1.5 hours of law tutorial(his lesson is rubbish and he does nothing except to give us that 1.5 hours of free time).
after which i'll be coming home to have lunch and then at night have dinner at home then go for CCA. miaohui wun be going though cause she has got that test at 8pm. lol
wish her luck
(:

im tired le. gotta wake up early tmr..
:(
night world!

8/5
still waiting for darling to call..

dating with cheekok on wednesday
Loves
:)
but getting my stat results back tt day too.
suck
OMG
DARL CALL
~~~
hahahahahaha its 11.24pm now and we just hung up after 30 minutes+ of talk!!!
loves~~~
he managed to borrow his friend's phone!! whee~~
its the most shiok talk ive had with him since he went in cause last time we were always worrying abt the battery but just now we just couldnt be bothered any more!
(:
talked until me so happy!
(:
darling damn poor thing now he got bitten by some weird insect then he got like 5 HUGE GIGANTIC SWOLLEN insect bites on his leg now and one of it is as big as his palm size and you should know how big his palm is.
so scary
:(
and now it turned out tt he can only come out sunday NIGHT. wadddddddddddddddddddddddddd I THOUGHT IT WAS SUNDAY MORNING LA
sob.
so now not really 5 days left. more like 6 days left.
sadness
miss my darling so much. miss his hugs and miss lying on his belly which feels like a water bed. hehes
(:
AI NI BAO BEI
FASTER COME OUT!! (:

8/5
sob. i think im the saddest girl on earth right now
darling hasnt called me which means probably he is not going to anymore
:(
just now i received an sms thinking it was him and a strange number appear thus i thought maybe he used his friend's phone to sms me. but in the end its just a message reminding me there's CCA tmr
:(
sob.
how im gonna get to sleep tonight i dont know
:(
miss darling so much!!!
SOB

8/5
finally finally hahahahahahaha
SO HAPPY LURHH!!
5 more days to bear till darling comes out for 2-3 pathetic days
but still, its time to spend with darling (:
his mummy called me just now to chat. lols. was a bit nervous. =x
darling have a bad back problem in camp now and we are all concerned about it. discussed about it and will ask him to call them later cause they are thinking of bringing him out of camp to find a specialist and solve the back problem once and for all.

waiting for my darl to call now. so happy! (:
today he totally never sms me in the day time other than a morning sms. he normally will send me quite a few during free time or breaks. I think its cause his 3 batteries are ALL OUT OF BATTERY!!! especially the last one was the most disappointing. it went flat after like what, 5 minutes of talking.
zzzzz

hopefully he got them charged through whatever methods today and will be able to call me later
(:

i had been SOOOO deprived of money last week that just now when i FINALLY got my pay, i rushed to the market and a few mama shops and treated myself to $20 worth of sweets, drinks and snacks!!!
awesomeness!!! made my day man!
then the remaining $70 i used to repay my debts

so now i'm left penniless again plus still owing some debts
:(
sob. emo again

7/6

darling didnt send me a good night message before he slept!! so sad :(

sob

how could he forget to do such a important thing??
sigh
:(
im so emo now..

saw a joke just now and it sort of cheered me up:
Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses. he doesn't seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed.
the other guy whips out his phone and calls the emergency services. he gasps,"my friend is dead! what can i do?" the operator says,"calm down, i can help. first, let's make sure he's dead"
there is a silence, then a gun shot is heard. back on the phone, the guy says,"ok, now what?"

omg cheekok just told me she went to my school some entre forum last mnth and met dexter and sebastian
=x
then she asked them abt me and then...

28. `_yueqiu. at a distance. feeling unhappy. says:
yah that day I ask them if they know you
they all know
and they started laughing
for no reason
hysterical laughter..

~~~
=x??

everyone else's out at night having fun, eating steamboat and watching movies while im stuck at home every night waiting to call darling
:(

a bit no life le..

cant wait for him to be out next sunday
whee~

en shen gave me 2 NDP tickets for this saturday's preview. (:
so happy. so badly wanted to go with darling but he can only come out on sunday.
:(
i miss doing stuffs tgt with darl. it just makes everything so much more fun.

so i decided to ask my friends. but i mentioned it to my parents and they asked me to bring my sis go. but then these days she never do her work properly and is always caught copying answers so they decided not to.
till now i dno whether to go with my sis or one of my friends(probably miao hui)

was considering asking my lao gong too but i'm scared she'ld be busy cuz school's restarting. i really missed her so
:(

we even bought a couple shirt a few years back but we never get to wear it together
:(
and now the shirt's out-dated and has become a fashion faux pas and i dont think we would ever get to wear it again
:(

its so damn hot these days. totally forcing me to blast my aircon all the time
:(

gosh im astonished at the number of girls who did plastic in US. the contestants in the paris hilton show either had lip fillers or boob jobs and they are talking openly about it
and i hate those lip fillers. they r so ugly!!!

yay, finally the end of Day 6. (:
having trouble sleeping again. suck. came online and managed to find a new past time

http://www.mtv.com/videos/paris-hiltons-my-new-bff-season-2-ep-2-sisters-before-misters/1612279/playlist.jhtml

(:
paris hilton my new bff 2!! (:

missing my darling

im so utterly disappointed with john. this is the 100000000000000000000000000001th time he broke his promise again and i really had enough of his nonsense.

why cant he learn to keep to his words instead of letting me down again and again?
when you FUCKING PROMISED SOMETHING THAT KEEP TO IT DAMN IT!
IF NOT WHAT THE FUCK SAKE IS THE PROMISE FOR????

i hate people who dont keep to their words and now i feel so disappointed that my guy had to be the worse of such people.

6/7

finally.
finally 6 days passed. it'd been such a long and torturous week :(
i cant believe i still have 700 days to go through before he ends his NS
sigh.
totally looking forward to next sunday when he comes out and hopefully we can spend the whole of Monday together and he wont go off playing golf or doing some other stuffs..

miss him badly..
:(

sob sob i want to watch harry potter!! it seemed like everyone else has caught the show except me
:(
gotta wait for darling to come out next sunday cause i promised him to watch it with him

1 week 2 more days to go
:(

had my 13th driving lesson yesterday and i managed to complete 3 subjects!! they are vertical parking, ramp and emergency braking.
vertical parking is hell lot easier than parallel parking. it seemed harder but turned out to be such a breeze. you just had to go SUPER slow then sure get in one. i always forget to do safety checks though =x

ramp was fun!!! hahas. i have to make my car go up a step then brake immediately to avoid hitting a pole in front. after tt my instructor would remove the pole and i have to get the car back wheels up the step too and brake immediately so as not to drop down the step. after tt i have to bring my car down and then do a reverse. initially i didnt dare to accelerate too much and two times my front wheels where mid-step and i braked so it kind of like got stuck halfway
hahas
(:
then after i released the brake, my car rolled back
=x

but my instructor said i was real smooth on the ramp and he kept praising me. but after he praised me, i dno why but i started doing it badly
=x
one time i was driving into the range to queue up for the ramp, i wanted to drive close to the other car which was already doing reversing but he stopped me and started explaining to me that the car might hit the pole which would fly towards us and hit us if we get too near. at that exact second, as it to demonstrate, the car indeed hit the pole which flew a good distance towards us. damn scary man!
lol

emergency braking sucked. i had to be on full alert then go at a moderate speed and if he hits the err.. i dno wad tt called. but if he hits something, i have to brake immediately and press the brake all the way down without jamming the brakes. i still dont know wads the diff of tt. its totally jamming wad.. =x
then my precious coach bag dropped on the floor a million times lor. damn heart pain!!
:(
and i so love my instructor yesterday cause he let me go out on the road cause i completed ALLL the stage 3 new stages + revision alot of times and we still had an extra 20 minutes (: i was totally flying on the road!!! he kept asking me to slow down but past few weeks ive been so deprived of driving on the road that i just couldnt resist!!
(:
i think i impressed him with my driving cause at the beginning of the lesson he was doubting my ability of completing all my subjects in time to take my test which is just 3 weeks away on 12th august. he looked at the number of lessons i had(12 as of ystday) and he said normal people would take about 18-20 lessons to get to the stage i was at. so he thought i was anyhow learning and rushing my previous instructors to faster teach. but at the end of the lesson he was like,"your driving no problem la. i think u only need 6 more lesson(1 lesson to conclude stage 3 + compulsory 5 revision lessons) can take test le la. but he did mention that i need to watch my speed alot more and sometimes i fail to do safety check. ops
im such a dangerous driver
and ohya guess what! i managed to do a turn one-handed! hahahahahaha!! so fun lurh! last time i always dun dare to do one=x

i still have three point turn(not even tested) to do then ive completed my syllabus le! whee! so next lesson i'll just learn tt plus my evaluation and i'm done with my learning!!
(:

i <3 driving

(:

5/8
darling finally called me just now
(;
but he's got bad news.
:(

his back is hurting badly and he's going to check up tmr to see if its anything serious

and one of his room mate contracted H1N1 virus and they had close contact so he might have gotten it too. all the guys in that room were made to wear face mask where ever they go
hahas

very tired now
gotta go bathe n sleep
(:

5/8

its 11pm already and still no call from darling!!
:(
his phone is off too

sob sob sob!
my phone kept lighting up cause im transferring songs from lappie and whenever i receive each song my phone will light up AND EVERY SINGLE TIME I THOUGHT IS HIM CALLING AND MY HEART WILL SKIP A BEAT.
in the end its not

damn disappointing
:(
sigh

5/8
(: 5 days gone, 8 to go. reaching the halfway mark soon
(:
im slowly getting used to this new life of mine. everyday coming home early and surf the net, study a bit and help take care of my sis. when i was with john for the past 11 mnths, i seldom even get to reach home before 11pm everyday.. that explains why after he left i suffered so much and had such a bad time adjusting..

been listening to a lot of music to help improve my mood. but sometimes it backfires and just makes me cry all the more.

waiting for darling to call me now. gg 10pm already he has still yet to call. sob
first few days he always call me at 920-930pm. nowadays its always after 1030pm
:(

late for my driving lesson today. the bus refused to come! damn irritating. luckily i took some money from my mum this morning and i used it to take a cab. the driver was a bullshit one la he was writing the TOTO numbers on a paper while he drive then he kept stopping
idiot
in the end i was late for 10 minutes
zzz

4/9
ive got a test later and now im still watching michael jackson
lol
=x
time to head to school tata~~

btw, just now i saw my sister eating pencil lead. OMG i was fking shocked
=x
more abt tt later

miss my darling <3

3/10
just hung up my call with darling. they had a 15 minutes extension to 10.15pm so we can get to talk
(:
but he got to wake up at 430am tmr for a long run :(

waiting for his good night sms nw
whee

3/10
darling just called me. they had a late dismissal and have to lights out at 10pm which is less than 20 minutes away
and now the toilet is jammed with pple and he cant get to bathe yet
:(
sigh
3rd day only so tight timing alr
sob

but they had physical training and fire drill whole day so he must be tired
maybe later talk for 5 minutes then let him sleep le ba. dun want him to get caught too..

missing him

back to study for tmr's test

2/11
2 days passed, 11 left to go
~~~
i feel so lonely now. sob
got a hollow empty feeling inside me..
my cousin warned me of this a few months back already but i never thought i would be affected this much by it. cause everytime we break up and a few times we even broke up for days and weeks without contacting each other. i thought the 2 years would be a breeze and blow over before i knew it.
but i was so wrong. its only day 2 and im dying
:(
talked to my cousin for the entire night and she told me it would be worse abt 2 months down the road. there would be times when he would only be dismissed at 11pm and given a mere 10 minutes for wash up and lights out. we wouldnt even be able to talk then.. and if he get caught on the phone, he would be made to stay back for the weekend to do extra duty..
sigh.
and the worse thing is, there will be a week whereby he would have to go outfield or sth and he would not be able to bring his phone at all FOR AN ENTIRE WEEK. :(
sob. im so gonna die tt week.
hopefully its when im in china so at least i wont feel so much pain

sad thing is, im gonna miss his graduation. sobs.
:(

hopefully he can take some leave and fly over to china to see me after he graduated (:

he called me a couple of times and sent me quite a few smses today. but tmr onwards there wont be anymore of them in the day time. he will start physical training and wouldnt be bringing his phone out
:(
probably we could only talk at night for a bit. praying that he sends me a gd morning sms tmr before he falls in

jus now he sent me a sweet gd night msg:
esther baby, sorry for putting u thru this ordeal. I'm missing u so much and its hurting inside. I hope that this separation will bring us closer together! ilu

~~~
(:
so happy..

these few days i was super troubled over how to talk to him in the future cuz he's not allowed to charge his phone in camp. so i did quite some shopping research these days. initially i wanted to get him a handphone charger thats powered by normal AA batteries. they kind of transfer the electric power from the battery to the phone. but it will probably consume loads of batteries so i went to find if there are better options.
today i found the ultimate solution!! solar powered charger. its damn cool cuz u leave it out in the day and it charges and then when ur phone no batt u can just plug it to the charger and it will transfer the power from the solar battery to the phone
(:
but it takes abt 10 hours to charge the solar battery. still, its fine cuz my bf can just leave the solar batt to charge in the day time then at night then come back to charge his phone
(:
then it will charge more efficiently if its plugged and charged by electricity which my bf can do when he is out of camp
(:

bought it immediately (:
but i am super duper broke(not a single cent left in wallet :( maybe just 10 cents), so i borrowed money from dad to buy it
(:
so happy that finally i managed to solve this problem
wheeeee

love my darling!! <3

====
today school was boring. penny drifted from our clique a little so its quite a sad day for us. we stayed back 2 hours to wait for our afternoon lesson to commence to learn tt the teacher couldnt make it today and had to makeup on friday
sucks
penny esp was damn pissed and didnt want to accept the fact cause she waited 4 hours in school for the lesson and it had to turn out like tt
disappointing
:(
i could have arranged driving lor
i havent been attending driving lessons for so long tt the school sent me a letter warning me tt the test date is drawing near and i better start my lessons again in case i cant finish
i still got 20 subjects to finish lor
damn
:(
then these days ive been trying to find slots but cant manage to do so. super sad
:(

sigh
then today i was thinking tt me and baby's 1 yr anniversary is on the 8th of august which falls on a saturday. however the next day is stupid national day so im not sure if he will be able to book out on sat
:(
sob. but i managed to console myself in the end and told myself that it's ok, we could just celebrate on another day instead
its really sad when u cant even get to celebrate ur 1st year anniversary with the first and only guy that you reached such a benchmark with. but the most impt thing is that we both love each other and have each other in our hearts all the time. of course its best if we were able to celebrate, but its not necessarily compulsory die-die must celebrate.

super late now already. havent yet studied for test. im so screwed
:(
missing u my most loved darling..
night

yay, day 1 over!! 12 more days to go(excluding Sunday)
(:
so happy
feeling a bit lost and sleepless now. im too used to talking to darling before sleep.
sob.
planning to charge my phone and leave our song playing in the background till i fall asleep..
i suck at adapting.. i think by the time darling is used to his NS life, im still not used to not having him around lor..
need my darling around to kiss, cuddle and love :(

tmr will be another long and boring day. luckily no cca, but got tuition.. :( after tuition will guai guai come home wait for him to call
(:
it seems to be the only thing im looking forward to everyday le.. sob.

Nights world, Nights darling..

I love you..

if someone wrote a book called "10 things to do to make you feel better when your bf is in BMT", i will be the first to buy it.

miss him so much now i cant concentrate on anything else. even my parents sensed my mood and stopped disturbing me. feeling so bad cuz its my mum's bdae today and im too broke to buy her anything
:(

sorry mummy.

sent my darling to camp today..
:(

he picked me up at 630am, went to his house where i whined about not having 'nice food' to eat. im a super picky person when it comes to breakfast.. =x
in the end he brought out tim tam and caprisone. whee!!

his daddy and mummy went with us. daddy dropped us at the pier while we 3 went in. now cuz of H1N1 only 2 visitors allowed so his daddy sacrifaced himself.. :( cause he is a officer so he used to go to Tekong alot i think so he let me and his mother go to the island see see.
took quite some time waiting for the ferry. finally we boarded it and we still had to wait for people to board and everything

~~~~~
just finish calling darling. he damn sweet he kept calling me throughout the day whenever he gets little breaks or he try to rush his stuffs so he can squeeze some time to talk to me.. i miss him so much :(
today only first day i'm dying alr. just now we talked again, trying save batt so his phone can use longer. he only brought 3 batts in and now one batt already super low
:(
sad sad. halfway i cried cuz i miss him too much then my daddy came in and saw. very paiseh.
love my baby so much. he'll only be coming out on next sunday so it's still a long wait.
:(
without him, time pass so slow. and the most horrible thing is that his phone batteries are running out so probably the next few days we wont be able to talk as much le. :(
sad. i really cant do w/o my darling. he is more than anything i need and i feel so lonely and incomplete without him
he has just sent me another sms. drove me to tears again..

really regretting on how i havent been cherishing the times we spent tgt in the past months. I should have loved him more and spent more time enjoying his company rather than finding his faults and quarrelling over small matters.. but at least now i know that he really loves me and its really comforting and gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside.. (:
all the time im thinking of what he is doing inside camp and imagining his schedule and stuffs; i cant really concentrate on my work. :(

i love you my dearest, i really do. cant wait for you to book out next Sunday. I'm so gonna hug you for 5 hours straight

shit, ive started crying again :'(

today penny borrowed my lappie awhile to check her mail. when she took over she got damn shock at the amount of tabs i opened.
13 of them
hahas. she totally couldnt stand it and opened a new browser
=x

im so addicted to opening alot alot of tabs la. so convenient!
love mozilla

havent been blogging much recently. been so busy.

so happy with darling now. he's enlisting next week so im now spending as much time with him as possible
our 11th mnth in 30 minutes
(:
love u darling~